No, I haven’t forgotten my challenge found on www.ohsheglows.com …but truthfully, my trip to Windsor, well, it threw things a bit astray. Here are the fears that I overcame in the last 10 days:
1. Drunken Flirting–survived it…succeeded at it….and the shock of surviving it made me drink a bit more in celebration.
2. Have begun the process of starting flirting lessons with my friend. We have our first meeting to discuss the plan this weekend. First step–flirting without liquid courage, I reckon. Holy Hell.
3. Got over the fear of using my library account (I thought it was overly complicated–apparently it isn’t) and now I have 20 cookbooks on reserve…so. can’t. wait. to. start. reading. baking. cooking. eating.
4. Got over being afraid of my feelings. The only guy I loved got married. I embraced the sadness, the loss and managed to shake it off in a way that was surprisingly quick (for me) and didn’t involve the resurfacing of bad habits like my disordered eating or spending a lot of money. I don’t feel as afraid of those feelings and discomfort anymore…which I think is sorta huge.
5. Got over my fear of doing what I should do. I said no to some stuff this week because I simply wasn’t feeling up to it–including workouts, time with friends, etc. It was liberating.
6. I challenged myself to go without make up–a fear of not looking 110% perfect, put together and polished at work. Also, very, very liberating….though I miss my mascara.
7. I faced the fear of my thinking I look pretty darn well, just as I am. It is something I will always have to deal with, but for whatever reason, the last 10 days, have been sorta fabulous when its coming to body love and acceptance of myself, just as I am.
8. Running in insane heat, humidity and spider webs. Running in Windsor was one of the most disgusting things because of those three components. Thankfully, my asthma wasn’t triggered and I ran early enough so nobody but me saw my spider web freakout. I have never appreciated the sad, little Manitoba spiders more! lol. P.S. Spider webs seem to stick extra well when you are sweaty.
9. Challenged my fear of processed/unhealthy food and thus, my old lifestyle. During my time in Windsor, the food options, which I had mentioned, were less than healthy. I ate because, well, there were no other options and i’m not someone who can fast very easily…and I was rather afraid that it would mean a downward spiral back into that lifestyle. Fortunately, that didn’t happen. In fact, it has reinvigorated my desire to learn all things culinary so that I don’t have to eat that junk any more.
10. Annual physical–this is happening today–I hate them, I fear them and am slightly more fearful given the recent appearances of visual auras. Hopefully I will still have a clean bill of health.
Much love and stay tuned for more fear challenge fun!