This afternoon I had a coffee date over my lunch hour with my good friend A–whom I haven’t seen in ages.
We went to my favourite independent coffee shop in the world, Parlour–which also happens to be located next to my hair salon.
As we caught up, I mentioned how I felt a bit “woe is me” as I climbed into bed last night. Facebook informed me that many of my friends were having babies, upcoming weddings, purchasing new home purchases and family vacations and, well, all of that combined with my horrible dating prospects of late and the idea of being alone for the holidays all hit me as I tried to go to sleep last night and no amount of positive thoughts or thought changing tactics was working…so I figured I would embrace it and feel sad, shed a few tears and just told myself you will feel better in the morning.
To a large extent, I did. I had chocolate almond milk in my coffee, dressed up a bit extra, did my hair, even wore spunky undies….but…the tiniest residue of sadness still slightly lingered though. I told the lovely A about it and she shared with me a quote that I had heard before, but I clearly needed to hear again. It was…
“Don’t compare your behind the scenes to everyone elses’ highlights reel.”
and it was exactly what I needed to hear. I also decided that, upon hearing that quote, I was going to take a break from Facebook all in all. I deleted the app off of my phone and my iPad. I will only address fb emails or specific posts on my wall that have questions. No status updates, no likes, no commenting, no sharing….nothing. Simply put, I’m disengaging for a while….maybe a month, maybe for 3…but I do know I need to get away from it and away from feeling like my life isn’t awesome, when, in fact, in many ways, it is.
I’m not sure how long I’ll be able to hold out…or if I will enjoy it so much that I completely and utterly give up on it all together…we’ll see I guess and I’ll keep you all posted.