and I seriously couldn’t be happier.
Adios Mutha Uckas!!
In an effort to start the new year on a positive note, I am going to come up with a top ten list of the positive things that happened in a year that wasn’t lollipops, sunshine, rainbows and smiles.
1. I embraced my inner domestic goddess–I spent a lot of time in my kitchen and arguably it paid off as I made some delicious food for my family and friends and it provided me with an amazing sense of accomplishment.
2. I ran a half marathon with only 5 weeks of proper training. I wouldn’t recommend this and truthfully, if it wasn’t for the fact that I was battling migraines and an on/off bout of depression, I wouldn’t have done it. I finished that race, my only race, in 2 hours and 11 minutes. Not too shabby. Hopefully this year will be more race friendly
3. I managed to impress my big bosses. Though I never really posted what I promised to post about my career satisfaction due to, well, paranoia that someone in my professional life sees it, I am and have always battled a bit of “meh” to the jobs I have held. Even my current position, which is only a week old, has not turned out as positively as I would have hoped. I was given a big assignment and not only did i manage to impress my regional manager, but also the director of all the regions, which has actually sprung a large overhaul of our systems. I had no idea that my work on that assignment would have that sort of impact and it was pretty awesome to see something I worked on that finally affected some real change.
4. I saved up a whopping amount of cash for my new home fund. The hope of losing weight again and getting back into my old clothes kept me from going out and spending heaps on new stuff, and what i did spend money on, was things like amazing accessories that are timeless and weightless. 
By this time next year, in the hopes that I am able to continue with my saving discpline, I hope to have a most amazing down payment and a bit extra to purchase some furniture or appliances.
5. I started learning how to work my camera. I need/want/can’t wait to learn more…so I think I am going to have to start doing some extra reading and create a weekly 2012 photo challenge for myself (and others reading) since I can’t find one myself. 
6. I went to see a counselor when things were really low for me in the earlier part of 2011. It was hard to admit that I needed someone to help me as I have been rather good at pushing it aside and essentially spending money, going on trips and basically not being alone with my thoughts. In retrospect, I wish I had gone sooner.
7. I became more comfortable being by myself. Unless I was sleeping, I wouldn’t and couldn’t be alone. I would get anxious and I would get bored and I would get sad and immediately start to binge…and then purge and continue with that cycle. Granted there are still the odd times when these feelings will come up (last night in fact), but I am better able to deal with them now, then I was before.
8. I ended my dating hiatus. Though my re-entry into dating wasn’t a success if you consider “success” to be having a boyfriend. I did converse with several guys online through a dating site. One ghosted me. One I ghosted when I read about his distaste for curvy girls. The one that I met wanted another date but I wasn’t interested. I guess that could be marked as a possible success as I could’ve had a second date if I wanted.
9. I made efforts to stop being a people please-er. I stopped baking for people whenever I would stop by for a visit. I started voicing my opinions with the people in my life. Some didn’t like it,some embraced it, some didn’t notice/care. Was interesting to say the least. Its been kinda fun and kinda hard to do.
10. I started this blog. My little piece of the web has done wonders for me. It’s given me a voice, a chance to write and share. I only hope that I can become a bit more of a regular and involved web presence and can help others with what I post and share.
To those who have been reading, commenting and otherwise supporting me through this blog or through my daily life, I wish to say thank you. You have no idea how you have helped me this year and I hope that one day I can find a way to repay your support!
I wish for everyone that 2012 be filled with love, fun, adventure, family and friends.
See you next year,
Love Leesah!
